:( my grandpa is in hospice now so i am jobless

i was an at home caregiver for him because he had bad lewy body dementia (type of parkinson's disease) but it's gotten too bad we can't take care of him at home anymore. they said hes got like a few months to live max + maybe a year if he's lucky but idk :p thats what they always say and theyre gone before you know it (at least in my experience of dying grandparents)

:\ I don't really know what I am going to now. I am trying to be another caregiver for my old coworker but i'm not sure if that will work out. I don't really wanna give up my union and deal with finding another job but man it is a pain in the ass going through the entire process of being a caregiver

plus it is like........not easy getting a caregiver. before I became my grandpas legal caregiver we actually got scammed by one -_- thats not normal but it is annoying adjusting to having a stranger in your house + setting boundaries and I will be honest I was lowkey a hermit before covid so I feel like I have rotted my brain socially and im scared of driving like I am not looking forward to having a commute and dealing with strangers and workplace transphobia again ;_;

HOPEFULLY i am thinking maybe I could be like a substitute one....there is a caregiver shortage so I am almost guaranteed to find a client I just want to find one I work well with u kno...........

it kind of sucks big time because I cut off my dad's family so this is like my last grandparent and he was like more of a dad t me than my dad -_- i guess i am lucky i got to keep him around so long and he's been suffering a lot these past few years but it still sucks