i needed to replace my journal everytime I logged in it reminded me of the last journal and i got sad! i am trying to draw and do artsy stuff more, but almost nothing is worth posting unless you want a big barrage of stuff that took me less than 30 seconds.

for improving I kind of wanna go for quantity>quality because honestly i feel like i improved faster that way idk and its easier to just draw having fun than studying anatomy......sorry..........but i am an amateur hobbyist so hwatever...its not like id never do it or quit using references

breaking

local man learns 2 have fun again?

also I cancelled my ffxiv renewal so i'm trying to go through my backlog. I miss my bunny outfit haurchefant retainer but I just got burnt out and bored after playing every day for a year and a half. also all my fave characters are gone or dead and its obviously in a weird place where they want to introduce new characters for the next half. and i got tired of doing daily stuff so I have been playing other games

here are the games ive been PLAYING:

1. Echoes of Wisdom, I got this used for 40 and so far its really fun. I actually wanted it a lot because of these videos https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50rQqSQc43A . very funnies
2. mother 3....I named them after my birds. Weebaby = Lucas, Weebie = dad, Winoner (weebabys sister I gave away)claus witty=hinawa dead mommy. if u were spoiled by that then . oh well
3. bg3, but i took a break because i spent 100 hours (I got to baldurs gate and i got overwhelmed by all the noise and quit playing) (pathetic) (my r button was being funky so I couldnt even check options)

and that s it so far................................................

one of my birds died :( she was only like 10 and i took her to the er vet 50 miles away 3 days ago and they said she was fine...but well... CLEARLY NOT I guess.........feels like a waste of 400 dollars like...idk i guess its not the vets fault she said she couldnt do a blood test because she had a bruise.....like idk......

and i feel bad because her mate won't stop yellin for her like buddyyyyy you can scream all you want but shes not coming back :( they were together her whole life b wtf it sucks

have yall played metaphor refantazio it is pretty fun

i was thinking about drawing the bird lady saint ryelle? i think her name is but now that ive said it i will probably lose all motivation and ideas and never do it ever and look back on this journal in Shame/

im only beginnging the third dungeon but i've been playing it Soo Long everyday its like giving me a constant headache but its fun so i dont care

i know i said a few weeks ago that i was giving up 5ever but i lied i think i just need to increase my anti depressants and stop being like grrr ur art is poo and just do it and eventually it will Probably not be poo(?) but even if it is poo its okay like wipe and move on with life

I got a bluesky invite from my friend

pluel.bsky.social

also

if ur interested, my instagram is pluels

and I use deviantart still (why god cant I shake u) at pluel

I dont use twitter / X anymore because that place sucks eggs !!!!!!! fuck elon musk :)

hi hello

I made this so my page looks less empty idk what to say....

a few weeks ago I found a kitten trapped in a hole in my backyard so I rescued her :) her mom an siblings live in my shed. she is so cute her name is Lilith and shes a tuxedo cat. she is so sweet and saved me being from lonely little man even if she is a pesky little scamp

when i got her she was barely 6 weeks and fit in my palm but now shes getting so big ;_;